Well, One Month Has Come and Gone

I weigh the same.

I will readily admit that I blew off the first two weeks of the month. However, I actually got up 9 days the last two weeks at 4:45 and went to the gym. It has actually gotten relatively easy to make myself get up. Now, if I could just get everything else in line....

It is frustrating to do a lot of work (or what feels like a lot of work) and see no result. This is why people quit. Why should I keep depriving myself of an extra hour and a half of sleep when nothing is even happening? These are the thoughts that cycled through my head this morning when I got on the scale.

I know people will talk about inches and the way clothes fit, but that hasn't changed either. I also know people will say you can't expect to see changes overnight. But, when you are in a low place already, not seeing any change is the reason you fail. (I speak for myself only, obviously.) If I don't see a change, I make a bad choice. One bad choice leads to another, which leads to another, which leads to no weight loss or even weight gain.

I am jealous of those people who can work out 3 times a week, cut out one coke a day and then Poof, 10 pounds melt away. I think I am one of those unfortunate people that will have to work out 5-7 times a week, cut out all soda, and count calories just to see any results at all. I hate that.

I am not asking for the easy way out. I will go to the gym. I will give up cokes (tomorrow I promise!). I will use a child's plate to help with portion size. All I am asking for in return is that by the end of November to see some change on the scale!

Trunk or treat 2011.
This is the 2nd post in what is my year long quest to healthy. On the last Sunday of the month, I will update this. No weight talk in between.

Do You Really Want to Smell Like Her?

One of my occasional guilty pleasures is America's Next Top Model. About 4 years ago, it was can't miss tv for me. I have not watched the last 6 or so cycles, but this year is an "All-Star" cycle. I use the term all star loosely...Most of these girls are working models in the sense that they book jobs, but outside of the top model viewing community, they don't have name recognition.

The most recent episode had the girls creating their own scent. All I kept thinking, was, would someone really want to smell like a top model cast off? I mean these girls (as pretty as they may be) were all losers on their cycles. I already feel like the celebrity perfume market is seriously overcrowded, why would I want a non-celebrity scent too?

One of the girls (Bianca) was complaining about the challenge not being genuine....Again, think about where you are. You are a contestant on a reality show, and that reality show is America's Next Top Model. What is genuine about that?

The girl that won the challenge, Lisa, is probably the girl I would want to smell like the least. In her original cycle she peed on herself while wearing an adult diaper. I know people can change, but what she has shown so far this cycle is more of the same. I do not want to smell like the kind of person who pees on themselves.

The Questions of Life and A Difficult Decision

Our whole lives are driven by a series of questions....
Ages 6-18: What do you want to be when you grow up?
Ages 6-18: Where do you want to go to college?

Age 18-21: Are you dating anyone?
Age 18-21 (If the answer was no): Have you met my _________?
Age 18-21 (If the answer was yes): Is it serious?
Age 18-21 (If the answer is no): Why not?
Age 18-21 (If the answer is yes): Don't you think you are too young to settle down?

Age 22-25: Are you dating anyone important?
Age 22-25 (no): Have you tried ________?
Age 22-25 (yes): Is it serious?
Age 22-25 (no): Don't you want to get married?
Age 22-25 (yes): Has he asked you to marry him?

Age 25-30 (If unmarried): So are you dating anyone important yet?
Age 25-30 (If married): When are you having babies???!?
Age 25-30 (After one baby): When are you having MORE babies!!!???

I have been fielding these questions for 22 years. I don't yet know what the questions will be after 30, but I can wager a few guesses. The last question is the one that really gets to me. When are you having more be honest, probably never. I won't rule it our completely, but we are happy. We are happy as a family of three.

J and I have bounced around this topic and decision for over a year. At one point or another one us wanted another one, the other did not. Lately though, the vote has been unanimous, no more babies. We have been told we are selfish, we are doing A a disservice, she will be spoiled, she will be lonely, she will be alone.....The thing is, we disagree with all those things. Yes, it might be selfish on our part. We want things. Better things than we have now. We want to be able to take family vacations, have a nice home (in a good school district), give A all the things we never had. Yes, we could do this with another child, but not to the extent we can with only one.

I am not knocking any choice. If you want 7 children and can afford them, then have 7 children. If you want 2, 3, 1, or none, do what you want. There is no right number of children for any family, so why is that people feel like having one is a bad thing? I don't need a guilt trip. Trust me.

This is a really hard decision for us to make. We are still not 100% certain (but 95% of me says no). I LOVE A with all my heart. I want to give her the world. I want her to have as much of my attention as possible. But I am a "bad" mom because I only want one child....I am not sure how that adds up.

I will miss the pink baby smell. I will miss the adorable baby clothes. I will miss the coos, the giggles, the snuggles. But another baby is just a temporary fix to those lost memories. I would rather look forward to A's first day of school. The nights she wants to sleep in bed with me. Her first trip to the ocean. Her first flight. So many more great memories to build. So much love to give.

So the next time you ask me when I am having another baby, and I say I'm not, don't judge. Don't tell me to give it time. Just trust that I know what I want, what my family needs, and that I am happy with my choice.
The Three Musketeers

Good (Bad) Movies

This weekend A was out of town, so J and I rented 4 movies. Bridesmaids, Green Lantern, X-Men First Class, and Thor. I know, I know, these are all old movies, but we don't have a lot of opportunity to watch movies on a regular basis. A loves to be the center of attention, and we love to give her that attention. Part of the great thing about having just one darling baby is that we CAN give her a lot of attention. Sometimes, we give her too much.

Anyway, this movie marathon got me to thinking about some of my favorite movies. I love bad, cheesy movies. Movies that other people think are crap are generally high on my list. Some of my favorites include: She's the Man, Centerstage, Eurotrip, The House Bunny, Plan 9....I could go on, but I won't.

I like acceptably good movies too, but a lot of time, the schlocky ones really get to me. Does it have Bruce Campbell in it? I bet I will love it. Does it have a former Disney teen star in it? Love it. Does it involve tired cliches? Count me in. Did Ed Wood have anything to do with it? Duh.

Good (Bad) movies are one of my favorite ways to spend a sick day. (Or they were pre-A). Do you have any secret shame movies?  

Pinterest Pin to Reality #2--Bunny TuTu

Pinterest Via Posh Tots

What you need: Tulle, a crochet headband, and a pair of scissors.

Step 1: Cut the tulle into strips. I chose 4 colors, hot pink, pink, pale pink, and white. I bought the 6" spools from Hobby Lobby. This way it only required one cut, as opposed to a large yard of tulle that you have to cut both width and length. When you decide the length you want the tutu to be, cut your strips double that length. So if you want a 5" tutu, cut your strips into 10" pieces.

Step 2: Find something to put the headband around. I used my leg. It was easy. Other sites I saw recommended a book. For me using my thigh was easiest. I sat on the couch and moved it around when I ran out of loops.
Step 3: Fold the tulle in half, then loop it through the 2nd row holes. This is similar to how you might tie a scarf. The 2nd hole works better than the first because if how tight you will pull the knot.

Step 4: Keep going until you have made your way back around.
 Step 5: Go back and add more for additional fullness. Really though, you are done. It is super simple!

My "final" product.*

I hot glued the bunny tail to the band.


I think she likes it!

Bunny Tutu!
Obviously, mine is not quite as posh or polished as the inspiration, but overall I fell pretty happy with the results! *I have added a bit more since I took the pictures tonight.

Pinterest Pins to Reality #1

On Sunday I dove into my Pinterest hair and nail board to find a new idea for my finger nails.

Photo Via The Beauty Department
Step 1: Remove any prior nail polish. Wash hands.
Step 2: Use your favorite base coat. I like Sally Hansen's Double Duty.
Step 3: Paint your entire nail with the lighter color. I chose OPI's Glitzerland, a metallic gold.

It looks more true gold in person.

Step 4: Let those suckers dry. My first try I did not wait long enough and the reinforcements stuck to my gold coat. Not good! Wait at least half an hour to make sure the lighter color is totally dry before you attempt the top layer.
Step 5: Place the reinforcements on your nails. You can go with a smaller moon or a larger one, the key is consistency! Once again, I found this out the hard way the first time I tried this. One hand had larger moons, maybe half navy and half gold. The other hand had small moons. Neither way is better than the other, but it looked silly since my hands did not match each other. The tutorial I used recommended cutting small slits in the reinforcements to help them lay flat. DO THAT!
Step 6: Paint your top coat. I used Ulta's Moody Blues.
Step 7: Let it semi-dry then remove the stickers.

Reality, take 2. Much better, but still not quite right.

Today I went to Hobby Lobby and loaded up on paint, spray glitter, tulle, and headbands. My goals, make my painted pumpkins and A's bunny tutu costume.

I have yet to do the pumpkins, but I did make the bunny tutu. It looks amazing! I am saving that for a later post, but I will do a step by step tutorial on that as well.

The Great Costume Debate of '11

Me as a yellow crayon on my 2nd or 3rd Halloween.
I had dreams that for Halloween A would be a yellow crayon. I would pose her and take a picture just like the one of me from one of my Halloweens.

She had other ideas.

When I mentioned the idea to be a crayon in the car she flat out told me no. "No. I will probably be a princess."

Me, "Okay..."

A, "Or a fairy. Or a pink butterfly."

I can't help but note that all of these costumes are very similar to one another. I decided to drop the topic. We drove the rest of the way home practicing our letters. A day later I asked her again if she wanted to be a crayon. Again, the answer was no.  She was still holding tight to the idea of being a fairy, butterfly, or princess.

I mentioned this to my friends and they all said, well you are the mom....but the thing is, I don't want to battle her over this. She is two. But, she is smart and has her own personality. If she does not want to be a crayon then I don't see any point in making her. Her being a crayon was my idea, not hers. She does have her own ideas, dreams, and goals. There are some things I don't compromise on, like what she wears to school (but she does get to pick her accessories). I feel like this is a compromise I can make. If she truly wants to be a princess, butterfly, or fairy then I will go out and find the best costume I can. Maybe in a year she will come around and I can realize my dream of a 2nd generation crayon.

P.S. Today she told me she wanted to be a bunny. Guess who else was a bunny the year after being a crayon....